“Do you miss dating girls?”

I hate how this comes up and puts stress on my boyfriend and I.  All because I had to be truthful and tell him that I’ve been questioning my pansexual identity.  And also that I go through periods where I do identify as a lesbian. 

Honestly I wish my sexuality was clear cut like some of my friends because I hate this catch-22 situation my mind fixates on.  If I do realize and accept being lesbian and leave him would he hate me?  What if I mis-step and do it and it turns out I accept being pansexual and it was all for naught?  Would it even be worth it? I mean this dating crap is hard enough being a tom-boy transgirl! 

Regardless of my own sexual conundrum I don’t want to hurt him.

I’m a masculine transwoman but sometimes I wish I was more feminine because I’m scared of not being taken seriously when I come out.

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It felt like a jab to the stomach when my closest friend said “Sorry, but I won’t really think of you as a guy until you become one physically,”. I understand where they’re coming from with that, but ouch…